Pride and Prayer

Somehow it seems pride and prayer don't go together at all.

I found myself realizing how humbling it is to have people pray for me. People are praying for my brain tumor...to either shrink, stop growing, or disappear....whatever God's will is. The reason it is so humbling for me, I have discovered, is because sometimes I have had a wrong attitude in praying for people.

Oh, yes of course I have had this prayer line to God...from the time I can remember, it was like I had a direct link to answered prayers....sure they were not all answered as I had desired. I have always been a prayer warrior...intercessor for others...and I enjoy praying for others. I have discovered that at some point I continued enjoying praying for others but I also began to become a bit pride-full. Oh, I wouldn't pray for someone unless I knew I had the time to so that I could really devote that prayer time...but I also felt a little "mighty" at times because people would often tell me how fast my prayers got to God...they could tell. It was sort of like when I was a little girl who learned very quickly. I would go around telling people, "I'm smart, huh?" Well, God doesn't need intercessors that go around saying, "my prayers get answered quickly, huh?" I didn't really "say" it...but I had a wrong attitude..call it that ugly word...PRIDE.

So, it is humbling because as I confess, I have sometimes had pride in praying for people. I have talked to God about it...I know that praying is bringing ourselves humbly to our magnificent Lord God in thanksgiving and admiration...and yes confession. Father God hears our prayers...our petitions...in humility I once again "take off my shoes" before Jesus..entering His presence in awe and wonder...knowing that it is an honor to take my issues before our Lord God Most High...the Almighty.

I thank Jesus for this privilege.